I will permit no man to degrade my soul by making me hate him.
                         ~Booker T. Washington
 

To be in the Presence of Angels

How does one breathe when others are sucking up all of the air?

Good Mornings

Good Nights

Fallacy of the Flesh

In a loss of awareness of my flesh

Entrenched in the realm of my Spiritual self

Look at faces and see the blank stares of despair

Spirits dying to be set free before carnal death

Holy Spirit directs me to dig deeper than before

Shallow waters sink quickly and fade with the shore

The Spirit is always hungry for more

Sin and deliverance are now at war

My heart remains heavy for those who lack understanding

Rather stay quiet, but God is commanding

That I speak from the Spirit (Spirit’s demanding)

Step forward two fold, for on faith I am standing

 

Unconscious by day, yet awake while I’m dreaming

Pray to The Father to keep me from screaming

Get lost in the stars; why are they twinkling and gleaming?

Led straight by the word, while on reality leaning

Fasting for peace, knowledge, and clarity

Waiting on the promises that He has declared for me

Disgusted by deception, egotism, and vanity

Gaining Godly wisdom while losing my own sanity

God sees my weaknesses, but He knows my strengths

He hears my confessions and knows my intent

But what’s the use sinning if when we repent

We return to the place in which our conscience is bent?

I look into eyes with no soul left inside

Humility abandoned and replaced with selfish pride

By God, we are created, but by flesh we abide?

There’s a fallacy in that. It just doesn’t feel right

Symbiosis- Bill Evans

In my opinion, one of the most beautiful pieces ever composed.

Hot & Cold

There does exist a word to describe sheer bliss and contentment.

Likewise, a word exists to describe complete disgust and resentment.

(I prefer the lesser of the two evils, if I must convey...)

Shattered

The glass shattered beneath her clinched fist.

Relief…

She didn’t even feel the pain from her bleeding flesh

Tears, sighs, and loud screams that nobody heard

She smiled so no one ever said a word

Truth

Love is the only Truth;

But if the Love of God is an unfamiliar concept,

Then Love can be a lie too...

Screams the Strings

When I have no other choice,

The strings become my voice...

My walls scream DECEPTION.

God says SURRENDER.

Void of REFLECTION.

The mind is the Spirit's worst CONTENDER.

I am Only a Shell

I am only a shell. Created for purpose, but to no avail. My voice remains quiet while my Spirit yells. Help, me before I fail.

All this time, I thought I heard my own heart beat. But I’ve discovered it was only my Spirit trying to break free. Get these demons off of me. I cannot accept defeat.

I remember hearing the Spirit from age of innocence. My shell of a mind couldn’t make sense of it. So I filled up my mind with thoughts too dense. And used emptiness as my defense.

God had another plan for my life. Full of the gifts (which encompass strife). Prayer isn’t enough; it will not suffice. Not for understanding of an abundant life.

I am only flesh. This world will surely lead me to death. And my Spirit dies too if I don’t pass this test. Like energy, I cannot stay at rest.

All this time, I’ve been in the dark. Spirit lurking, hungry as a shark. God says, “Take your Spirit out of park…” Time for me to make my mark.

Can’t blend worldly and spiritual together. I choose Life; I like it better. But I have die to get there; I’m down for whatever. Ties to earth, I must sever.

I thought I knew myself well. But my voice remains quiet while my Spirit yells. Lord, help me before I fail. I am only a shell.

Love Like Shoe Laces...

I never knew love could be so perfectly tangled, like shoe laces...

The 1

I remember asking someone

How did she know when she met “the one”

With no drawn out stories relative to none

She replied, “I knew it before it was done”

I contemplated

Raised my head, yet hesitated

For the look on her face was validated

Love had her elated

Love comes from the love of the Father

If that’s misunderstood, why bother?

This type of love pushes us farther

Makes us love deeper and harder

I didn’t know until I got it

I didn’t have to mimic it and wasn’t taught it

Wasn’t thrown out and I bought it

Simply said, I just got it

So I guess the saying goes

When you know, you know

Can’t wait to watch it continue to grow

And I never wanna let it go…

Momentary Confinement

Anxiety creeping

Conscious seeping

Internal weeping

I put myself aside

Heart is racing

Breath escaping

Thoughts worth debasing

Mind runs and hides

Heart on sleeves

Trembling of the knees

100 degrees

There’s no more air

Fear surrounded

Life compounded

Reflect astounded

That I am there

Chill Out...

God's Pie

Rounds of Fear

I can't put my finger on it

But I can feel it

There

Like a noose around my neck

Like a chain around my ankles

Scared to move

Don't wanna slip

Can't put a finger on what it is

But I can feel it

There