Friday, July 30, 2010

rejection


is probably one of the most feared emotions of all time. And here lately I am getting more than my fair share of it, at least from potential employers. I promise I get between 1-3 'rejection' emails per day.


I never knew it would be this hard, or suck so much, or hurt so bad. FML.


#thatisall

Lettin' it all Hang Out...

Do we really ever outgrow gossip? Nah, not really. It starts in grade school, works its way up through middle and high school, and follows us to higher education, and finally, the "real world." It seems like with today's technology, it's even easier to keep up with the gossip. There's countless internets sites and blogs designed specifically to record that "he say, she say" melodrama. But my personal favorite machanisms for processing drama are these new things called Facebook & Twitter. (Sense my sarcasm?) Never have I ever seen so many friendships severed, relationships destroyed, and people beat up over a 'post' or a 'tweet'! My guess is that most folks post gossip or some ridiculous tidbit of info to get some type of reaction out of people, but we also have to be selective of what we put out there for people to see. If you know that you go through relationships like toilet paper, why post your relationship status every other week. (And sidebar, I don't need to see pictures of your firstborn child being birthed via the delivery room.) People can only feed off of what you give them, so if you know you have those few 'friends' and 'followers' who are suspect, limit your profile so they can't get in it! Just my observations and opinions. What do you think?

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Dear Mr. Sandman,



I don't know if you noticed this but Mr. Tambourine Man is kicking your butt! You're supposed to bring me such peaceful rest and all these sweet dreams but you been M.I.A. lately and Mr. Tambourine man has gladly taken your place keeping me up at night, alone with my thoughts, and they are none too kind after dark I'll have you know. So would you please kindly resume your sleep-inducing duties, I miss you.


insomniacally yours,

me

Standing on the Edge


Standing on the edge...
Chaos all around
Quiet in my head
So that I never hear the sound.
Slowly getting closer
Still so far away
Drowning out the racket
With the crashing of the waves.
No more a part of thunder
Serenity, I pledge
I say goodbye to yesterday,
Standing on the edge...

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Welcome!

Hey everyone, thanks for checking out the blog. BlackOut the Night is a blog designed to address our deepest fears in ways never done before. This blog is all about creativity and expression through atypical tactics. Expect poetry, videos, music, art, everthing! So check back every few days for new posts. Tell your friends! Peace & blessings...

Fear

My life experiences have revealed to me that as human beings, we fear the unknown. What is it about not knowing that makes us so anxious? What is it that we are so afraid of? I looked up definitions of the word ‘fear’ and I found that most entries allude to “possible” and “probable” situations of danger to define fear. I realize that there are real dangers and reasons to be afraid, but why fear something that you’re not even sure will happen? I guess that’s just the way of the human mind. Fear is a powerful tool. What other emotion has the power to prevent us from doing something well before we’ve ever even tried it? And as easily as fear can hinder us from accomplishing a task, it can just a easily cause us do things we would have probably never done. Allow me to use relationships as an example. We often go into new relationships with our old relationships as a prerequisite. We base every almost decision on something that has happened in the past relationship, in hopes that we are not hurt, or that the other partner doesn't pull the wool over our eyes. Just as the definitions allude to, we base the new relationship on possible and probable situations, instead of looking at what is already there. Understandably, it's difficult to simply let go of all of the things that hurt us in previous relationships, but how long do we allow fear to guide us in our new destinies?
When I was a child, there was a sign hanging in the gym where I practiced cheerleading that read:

False
Evidence
Appearing
Real

It's simple, but true at best. Fear can be incredibly hard to shake, especially for those of us who've centered our lives around it. I say, face those fears. Don't let fear determine the direction of your destiny.
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