"Life Goes On"

It's crazy how they say, "Life goes on"

Then one day, I look up, and poof! you're gone

Hurts, but I keep telling myself not to cry

More hurt because I didn't get to say goodbye

I keep remembering every moment I spent with you

Like how I used to stick to your hip like glue

You made me laugh and laugh some more

What I'd give to see that smile once more

Oh, look, I found a picture that I took of you

Happy- as always, and you're smiling too

Still can't believe you're really gone

Farewell, see you soon

Cause "life goes on"

Rest in Peace to my beloved aunt, Cassandra "San" Bellamy

I Wanted to Write Something "Happy"...

I’ve noticed that my last few posts haven’t screamed “happy,” but sometimes, it’s just necessary to go where the heart and mind lead. It’s not to say that I, myself, am not happy (for happiness is relative); it’s just that cat scratching the back of my neck that I have to alleviate every now and again.
So, in some weird twist of irony, my expression (whether it appears somber, inane, or whatever adjective one uses to express it), is my own. It is my outlet, my vent session, my metaphorical cathartic that keeps my mind from piling up with all of the dirt and grime of the world. And in a relative kind of way (lol), I am h-a-p-p-y:)

And Then...

There was him…
He, who made me feel like I was the only woman in the world.
He, who would give me Jupiter if only I asked.
He, who would calm the sea so I could cross it.
He, who loved me to the ends of the earth.

And then…

There was you.

Refrain from the Brain

It was a Friday night and I was fine, all by myself
No one asked for you to come along
I was happy with you tucked away, back on the shelf
But along you came anyway
I saw you, yet I had nothing to say
Nothing to feel, nothing to cry
So this time, I simply said goodbye
Found a chest for you to be locked in
Placed you in my back pocket to be forgotten
Thrown in with the rest of my dirty laundry
I thought somehow, I could get you off of me
And it worked, for a while
Hid the strain behind a smile
Behind the laughter, behind the work
But you grew inside of my back, and it began to hurt
Grew inside of my chest and I couldn’t breathe
I couldn’t cough you up to make you leave
Hid everywhere but inside of my head
Tricked my mind into believing you were dead
Now, here I sit on a new Friday night
Wondering how to get things right
Pinch myself, but I’ve gone numb
Where is the pain? When will it come?

Captured:Sleeping Beauties

Heart Cries

My heart cries
To the ballad of a song for which there is no end
Down a road for which there is no direction
Racing, pounding,
My heart is drowning
In the middle of the sea
Lost to you, lost from me
Wanting, gasping, needing air
Reach out my hand, there’s no one there
My heart cries
Sadly, it’s no surprise
And I am me no more
Pieces… scattered
Slowly hit the shore
All cried out, last tears finally dried
Empty, lifeless
My heart has died