Refrain from the Brain

It was a Friday night and I was fine, all by myself
No one asked for you to come along
I was happy with you tucked away, back on the shelf
But along you came anyway
I saw you, yet I had nothing to say
Nothing to feel, nothing to cry
So this time, I simply said goodbye
Found a chest for you to be locked in
Placed you in my back pocket to be forgotten
Thrown in with the rest of my dirty laundry
I thought somehow, I could get you off of me
And it worked, for a while
Hid the strain behind a smile
Behind the laughter, behind the work
But you grew inside of my back, and it began to hurt
Grew inside of my chest and I couldn’t breathe
I couldn’t cough you up to make you leave
Hid everywhere but inside of my head
Tricked my mind into believing you were dead
Now, here I sit on a new Friday night
Wondering how to get things right
Pinch myself, but I’ve gone numb
Where is the pain? When will it come?