I See You

Hush now chile
I see you
Hiding there, behind that childlike smile
Eyes rolling and teeth sucked
I see you
There’s no more time for the games
How long
Could you possibly use your hurt
As an excuse
No, you are too regular
Enough
You smile with a mouthful of pain
And eyes which see big hands
Caressing you
With no control
Thinking that there-
Inside of your warmth
Is where you’ll find solidarity
From when you hurt-
So you allow him
To push deeply inside
Deep past the pain
Thinking that to hurt
On your own accord
Is the only way to heal
And all that comes out
Are tears laced with fury
And disgust
Because you realize
That he is the one who has been used
Not for your pleasure
But for your release
And you dance
Sparkling in the moonlight
With candles smelling of
Morning dew burning
And Billy Holiday playing
Softly in the background
You turn your shower to steaming hot
In hopes to wash away the smell
Of him
And the memories of
Where it hurt
When you were just a little ole thing
With ponytails and t-shirts
Mary janes, and lollipops
And there, you hide
But I see you chile
Grown woman
Hurting from way back when
And you let your hair down
And disguise your face
With blue eyeshadow
And pink blush
Thinking a lady like me
Wouldn’t be able to tell
Gone, now chile
I used to be you
And the only person that you are fooling
Is he who believes
That those tears you cry
Are on account of him
So hush now chile
I see you